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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I don't have a side of a mountain so the internet it is. (blah)

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and sick

and throwing up

and period

and tired

and jealous

and lonely

and miss-ey (My finicky psych professor would tell me this is not a real word, that the above covers it.  But lonely is a state of being, miss needs a DOoA and that makes it accurate.)  

and

and

and

Someone take this journal away from me

(But I did finish that stupid
assignment!)


Nostalgically blue, ache, like I'm missing something.

9 uses this journal...like a journal!

So last day of 2012 - it's been an interesting year. My highest highs and lowest lows (ever, I might hazard). So I'm half incredibly sorry to see it go and half good fucking riddance.

Last year on New Year's I was happy, really, genuinely happy, despite all the family crap and the stress - and excited I guess, for what was to come. Now everything's more or less neutral once more, so here's to finding that again somewhere in 2013. 

My love to everyone who's spent this year with me and whomever is reading this. <3